moldy bread

I have a bad case of the Mondays with a tummy ache, period cramps, and hunger. I am hungry because this morning I let J take the top heel of the end of the bread + 1 regular piece and I was going to have 1 regular piece + bottom heel. She left and I began making my lunch only to find out the bottom heel was moldy! So I only ate 1/2 a sandwich for lunch and there wasn't much other portable food in the house so now I am hungry. Also tired. And bored.

There really is just not very much for me to do on Mondays. I could work ahead, but that will just be worse for me in the long run because I have to wait a little bit for changes to be made otherwise I will be going crazy later in the week making changes to what I already did. I did find out, though, that I made a teeny little mistake with the stuff from last week that I was worried about, but it was no big deal. The woman I was covering for was so nice about it and said I did a good job. Yay.

The weekend was good after my yucky Friday afternoon where I was going to meet J and H at Southstreet Seaport after work, but instead they moved more towards Wall St. which meant walking a lot in the rain and getting lost. Saturday I went to the dentist and we visited the big Brooklyn Library which was somewhat disappointing because they didn't have many of the books that I wanted. The dentist was less than pleasant. I went in because my recent fillings have been giving me pain when I chew.

Upon looking at my chart he said, "So, why are you on so many medications?"

"Depression. Anxiety. I just quit smoking."

Later...

"So turns out your tooth pain is all in your head. Your fillings are fine...blah blah blah"
... could literally be in my head due to sinus inflammation causing my teeth to hurt. He ended up giving me a cleaning, but still, be a little more sensitive, dude! Now I have to floss twice a day and I don't like it one bit and I feel like a crazy lady that shouldn't be on so many medications and/or going to the dentist! I don't have to see him for another 6 months and if I continue to have pain (which I do! Cereal was hard for me to eat this morning) I might try going to a different dentist.

Babysat twins. Kneeled in a little poop. Made $50 while watching Tipping the Velvet, which was good, but didn't need to be 3 hours long. Hopefully more QAF will arrive today. Maybe two discs! But no email shipment confirm so probably tomorrow.

Sunday was great brunch with friends and all you can drink at our favorite place that is $10 bucks for brunch items like eggs or pizza or pasta + all you can drink. We have been going there weekly as a nice treat. Sunday grocery shopping and yummy trader joe's stir fry dinner last night.

I have a phone therapy session (rescheduled from last week) that I am not looking forward to. I don't like it and I told her I could only do 1/2 an hour today and I desperately need her to sort out pharmacy complications. I cry after every time I try to go to the pharmacy and getting my anti-crazy pills should not be this traumatic nor should it be difficult EVERY time. I just don't want to fill her in on everything. It makes me overwhelmed since I haven't talked to her in a while and I am worried that I will not tell her the important things and get caught up in details and then she goes on vacation. Ugh! I guess I need to find a therapist here, but I don't want to start over and frankly if I wasn't on so many drugs I would just not go, but there seems to be no way for me to stay on the drugs without checking in with a Dr. Even though she said she would continue to treat me even if I didn't have regular appointments it seems like I need to talk to her to get the prescriptions worked out every month. Everything seems more difficult today. I think I am having a quarter life crisis and I just want to lounge on the sofa when I am not going
to and from work and that is all.

I am researching rescue pugs and there is a place in Jersey that gets a lot of babies, but they say you have to live in Jersey which I think is the dumbest thing EVER.