childhood dreams

It's kinda one of those days. I feel restless and uninspired. I don't usually feel particularly inspired, but after a morning of reading my new guilty pleasure by Candace Bushnell, Lipstick Jungle, I wish I had taken a different career path. The book is about 3 extremely successful early 40's women who have accomplished their dreams with ease and grace. I despise and admire them simultaneously. One is the equivalent of Anna Wintour, the other is the president of a movie production company, and the other is a fashion designer. The fashion designer is really the one that makes me rethink my choices the most. She gains success at 18 and continues to grow as a prominent fashion designer until the latest fashion week when she finally has a poor review--at 42. Bushnell describes entering the fashion design and production business realistically and even though she is screwed over many times in her young age, I still wish I had chosen to follow my childhood dreams and pursue designing.

I know most people change their career at least 6 times in their life, but I don't even see how I can get into the fashion business from where I am at. It would take more than 6 steps, I am sure. Right now I wish I hadn't gone to Smith, which is ironic because usually I miss it more than anything. I wish I had tried F.I.T or Parsons or some other school. However, there is reality within that where very very few students actually become designers, let alone successful ones. But even then I could be some assistant somewhere and that might make me feel more inspired than this current position.

I looked online for graduate degrees that could lead me into the fashion world and there really aren't any. The only way would be to go back to undergrad and I don't think they let you do that. I just came from my very first staff meeting where it was announced that I will be handling a big account beginning Sept. 25. Network and Syndication for G**ette will keep me more occupied, which is great and exactly what I have been waiting for in my current job. I suppose I will keep dreaming and although I will most likely never come close to being a fashion designer maybe the opportunity for something perfect will arise later. I don't know what it would be, so the opportunity might just have to dawn on me some other time. Back to my fantasy world of the Lipstick Jungle...